4 years ago today I was very very pregnant. I was sitting at home in our tiny house in Hawaii. I was exhausted from carrying about this belly for 13 extra days... I was getting impatient and my mind began to wonder to thoughts like " is this baby EVER going to come out ?" to " Maybe I should get induced... " Then I would remind myself that when baby is ready, he/she will come.
I tried to keep myself occupied in those long weeks. I never imagined waiting this long. In my head I had many thoughts about what to expect. I thought for sure my baby would be one of the 5% that would come on his or her due date...
When that did not happen, my mind wondered to when labour would begin and where I would be. I imagined being in church and having my water break like in the movies. Or a more scary thought was that we would be hitchhiking into town and I would go into labour then. So I decided to seclude myself in the weeks that past. I did not want to be on the side of the road while in labour... No thank you!
We stayed home. Watched many many movies, I cleaned like a crazy person. And made home-made perogies and other freezer food. But as the days went on, the more exhausted I became. And the less I wanted to cook. So I cooked the freezer food. Counterproductive, I know.
We were into June... I was so looking forward to my May baby. Now I was going to have a little June bug.
In my head I began thinking about what labour would actually feel like. I had not felt a Braxton Hicks contraction before so I had no idea what to look for. Would I be able to handle the pain? Would Daniel know what to do? I wrote out lists for him to study so he would know what to do.
Then at 5pm June 4th I stood up to start making dinner after a long, lazy day... When I stood up I felt something very odd. I stood there for a couple minutes, waiting to see if I would feel it again. Sure enough 5 minutes later I felt it again. I quickly wrote down the time and how long this odd sensation lasted. A huge surge of adrenaline ran through my body. 5 minutes later I felt it again. But this did not feel like what I had read about. I could not feel the muscles in my uterus tightening up. It was feeling much lower. In my cervix. I was feeling our baby's head on my cervix as a result of the contraction!
Daniel noticed me furiously writing. He asked what was up. I told him " I think I am FINALLY in labour!! " I waited and felt my odd sensation every few minutes. I loved it. After about 30 minutes I started to get uncomfortable. We decided to call our dear friend, whom we had asked to be there with us on the big day. She told us she would be over within an hour. So I decided I needed to clean! I mean, that is what every pregnant woman does while in labour and is waiting for a friend to come over, right?
After the bathroom was clean ( I planned on a water birth, so I really did need the tub to be clean )
I used the bathroom several times because in my research I had read that empty bladders and bowels are best in labour. Finally after what seemed like an eternity Betty showed up. She took a few photos of Daniel and I while I laboured through the pain. We decided that washing the baby's clothes might be a good idea. So after we started the load of laundry. The pain and contractions were kicking it up a notch. So Betty drew a bath for me. When I got in, I felt better for a few minutes. Then, an urge came. It was both familiar and foreign.
Push! And when I did. Felt a pop, and gush. It was the strangest feeling. I was instantly uncomfortable with had just happened within my body. I saw my bath water become unclean with amniotic fluid. I got out of the tub and paced. It was now about 10 pm. 5 hours after my 1st contractions. Daniel and I decided that since the tub was now out of the question, that he should blow up the air mattress and I would give birth there. So I laid down. Exhausted and in pain. I was so tired that during the contractions I would close my eyes and fall asleep as soon as it was finished. I honestly do not remember much in those last few hours. I remember Daniel and Betty's voices cheering me on. Daniel's hands massaging my very sore back. I just laid there in through those contractions trying to breathe out the pain.
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Then our baby's head started to appear. I could tell from the excitement in Daniel's voice, when he could see the head. He urged me to keep going. Keep pushing. And I did. I felt like my pelvis was on fire. I wanted to break down in tears and give up. But those gentle loving voices told me to keep pushing. Finally I pushed out our baby's head. I was relieved. Then I waited for my next contraction to help me push our little one all the way out. It seemed to be forever until that next contraction came. When it came I gave a final huge push. Our baby slid out at 3:09 am June 5th 2009! Daniel caught the baby and cut the umbilical cord and as he handed me our very little one. He announced " It's ABIGAIL! " I lost control of my emotions as I held her, and nursed her. She found my breast right away and happily began eating. I was instantly in love. Never in my life and I known a bond that could form that quick.
Betty and Daniel cleaned up the air mattress as I had a shower. Then Daniel gently washed the birth fluids from Abigail. She did not like that. As she cried, I raced out of the shower so I could hold her and comfort her. After I nursed her again Daniel put her in 1st outfit. A sleeper dress with tiny stars. I snuggled her and we both fell asleep quickly.
This is Abigail at 7 am June 5th 2009 ( 4 hours old )
Daddy and Abigail's 1st morning together.
Abigail and Betty Sunday June 7th 2009
Our 1st family photo
6 weeks old
7 weeks old
11 weeks
1st Thanksgiving 5 months
6 months
1st Valentines Day
Abigail's 1st birthday
Abigail's Dedication
Trip back to Canada
Summer 2011
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